Balancing Your Faith

Easter 2012 146 smallI’ve always heard that faith is the opposite of doubt. But lately I’ve been thinking about it differently. Perhaps it’s because I struggle with a lack of confidence sometimes. I find myself wondering if I am really equipped to do the thing God has told me to do. Kind of like Gideon asking God, “Who, me?” over and over. That is clearly doubt, isn’t it?

At the other end of this faith spectrum, if you will, is what I see as pride. If I move away from doubt and find myself confident in what I’m doing then I immediately begin to worry that I will become prideful and take the credit myself for what is really God’s doing. So really, from where I sit, doubt and pride are at the opposite ends of the road with faith landing squarely in the middle. Right where it belongs.

God calls us to a balanced life. We need to trust Him and take Him at His word. If we constantly wonder if God has really called us and equipped us to do His work then we waste time that we could be using to accomplish what He’s asked of us. But we dare not become over confident and forget where our true strength and ability comes from.

James 1:6 But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind.

Jeremiah 9:23-24 Thus says the Lord, “Let not a wise man boast of his wisdom, and let not the mighty man boast of his might, let not a rich man boast of his riches; but let him who boasts boast of this, that he understands and knows Me, that I am the Lord who exercises lovingkindness, justice and righteousness on earth; for I delight in these things,” declares the Lord.

I think the whole picture is really much simpler that it looks. If we are aware of our doubts we confess them to God and move on toward faith and if we find ourselves overstepping our faith, we again confess our weakness, humble ourselves and come back to faith. Right in the middle. I believe the Lord knows that we have this continuous struggle. I think He has put us in this place on purpose so we don’t ever fall off either end but we are constantly readjusting to stay right in the middle. Right where God can give us hope for the future as we walk with Him using the gifts He has given us to proclaim His goodness.

Hebrews 11:1 Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.

Hide and Seek

Hide and seek is a fun childhood game that we’ve all played. When I was a child I remember playing this game in my house with an older girl who lived next door. She was already in middle school when I was just beginning elementary school, so I felt very special when she came and played with me. I loved every minute that she spent with me. I especially loved playing hide and seek. And I remember another form of hide and seek that I played when it was time for her to go home. I hid her shoes so she had to stay a little longer!

As we grew older, the neighborhood kids would play more elaborate forms of hide and seek, playing in the yards of neighbors on our block. There was one boy who didn’t want to play by the rules and instead of hiding, he would go home and have a snack while the rest of us continued to hunt for him with no success. Finally we caught on to his trick and made him promise to play fair or go home.

As a child I loved to hide and try to be clever so I’d be the last one found. But later as a parent of young children I found a different aspect to the game. When we would play with our little boys, it was more fun to see the look of triumph on their faces when they found us so we learned not to hide too well. We wanted to be found.

God loves to play hide and seek with us. He says that when we hide, we can feel safe. We can hide in the shelter of His wings. He doesn’t want us to hide from him like Adam and Eve did. He wants us to hide in Him.

When God hides, it’s for the purpose of drawing us to himself. He says that we will definitely find him if we seek him with all our hearts. This is a little different than what we played as children. Instead of one person seeking and everyone else hiding, it is the opposite.  In this version God is the only one hiding and all of mankind is seeking. And the greatest mystery is that He wants to be found! The God of the Universe wants you to find Him. Each day we can begin again to seek him with all our heart and we will be rewarded by sweet fellowship with Him when we find Him.

Psalm 119:114 You are my hiding place and my shield; I wait for Your word.

Proverbs 8:17 I love those who love me; And those who diligently seek me will find me.

Sunshine Above the Clouds

sun-above-the-cloudsWinter is sometimes a dreary time. Dark days, overcast and void of color. Sometimes after a few days of that sort of weather it is such a relief to see the sun. After the clouds clear and the sun is shining in a brilliant blue sky we just feel better.

Life can sometimes seem like those gray foggy winter days. Like we just need to see the sunshine for a little while. Whether we are facing difficult circumstances or trying to remain faithful to do what God has called us to do day after day, we can get weary and feel like we need refreshed.

If you’ve ever flown in an airplane on a cloudy day you know the feeling of climbing through the clouds and seeing the sun turn the clouds, gray from below, into a dazzling white from above. The sun was always shining, you just couldn’t see if because of the clouds. You never doubt that the sun is still up there, somewhere, even if days and weeks go by without a glimpse of it. You never wonder if it is still shining you are certain it is and that you will eventually see it again. The clouds will clear and the sun will shine.

Isn’t that just like life? Don’t we have dark days when we long to get a glimpse of God’s goodness? When we feel like all is overcast and gloomy? But we must not despair. Just because we can’t see God’s hand, doesn’t mean he isn’t working.

Just like the assurance we have that above the clouds the sun is still shining, we can also have assurance that beyond our gray circumstances, the Son is still shining as well. The Bible says that one day we will no longer depend on the sun or the moon for light. The Lord will be our everlasting light. He will shine over us for eternity.

Isaiah 60:19 No longer will you have the sun for light by day, Nor for brightness will the moon give you light; But you will have the LORD for an everlasting light, And your God for your glory.

When we get discouraged, we can imagine ourselves rising above the clouds where the sun is still shining. We can put our hope in our Heavenly Father, who’s light is never extinguished.

The Simple Joy of Hearing Scripture

IMG_5768God’s Word has always been a comfort to me. I go to the Scriptures when I am in need of encouragement, counsel and wisdom. I seek God’s direction in His Word. But sometimes I find myself in a place where even the energy to decode the words is beyond me. Have you ever been there? When you can’t even seem to understand what you just read with your own eyes?

As I write this, I have just experienced that again. Yet another family crisis has taken us from our comfortable routine. I find myself in the middle of a set of circumstances that swept us off our feet and hundreds of miles from home in bad weather. When we will go home is uncertain. What we will face as this day begins is uncertain. We don’t know how to prepare for the unknown.

Of course, the unknown to us is never unknown to God.

When we got the news that would take us on this latest unexpected journey we made the decision to travel at night. We drove twelve hours in the middle of the night and went immediately to the hospital. After several hours there, we finally went to our son’s home to eat a meal and rest. By this time I had gone about thirty hours with no sleep. I knew I was struggling to even think clearly. At this point God knew exactly what I needed.

As I rested my head, eyes closed, for a few minutes I heard a small quiet voice say, “Grandma, do you want me to read to you?” I really didn’t have the energy to listen to a story. While I was trying to find a nice way to tell this precious granddaughter that I really wasn’t able to listen right now, I heard her ruffling pages. Then she said, “Which Bible verse would you like me to read?” She wanted to read to me from her Bible? Well, yes, maybe I could listen to that. I knew just what to tell her. Psalm 34.  A place I have gone frequently over the years.

She flipped the pages and soon, in her sweet six year old voice, she began to read. The words soaked into my soul. I never opened my eyes, never moved. I just stayed there, quietly allowing God to use this precious little girl to sooth my tired spirit. Her gift to me was such a simple act of love. She knew I was tired. She just wanted to help. What an amazing gift. I need to remember to allow God to use me in other’s lives in such simple ways as well. It doesn’t always have to be a big deal to be a blessing to someone else.

Some of the highlights of what I heard?

Psalm 34: 4-9 I sought the Lord, and He answered me, And delivered me from all my fears.  They looked to Him and were radiant, And their faces will never be ashamed.  This poor man cried, and the Lord heard him And saved him out of all his troubles.  The angel of the Lord encamps around those who fear Him, And rescues them.  O taste and see that the Lord is good; How blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him!  O fear the Lord, you His saints; For to those who fear Him there is no want.

Psalm 34: 17-19 The righteous cry, and the Lord hears And delivers them out of all their troubles.  The Lord is near to the brokenhearted And saves those who are crushed in spirit. Many are the afflictions of the righteous, But the Lord delivers him out of them all.

Just what I needed.  The reminder that He is here no matter what the circumstances. As I listened I felt the tears begin to roll down my cheeks. Tears of exhaustion turned to tears of joy. God was speaking to me through the voice of a little girl who brought me the simple joy found in His word.